Sunday, February 17, 2008

A Fun week

Valentines Day...a day I have mixed feelings about, is it fun? Is it lame? I don't know. I do know that we sure did have fun this valentines day. We all dressed up and went to the Ballet to see "Cinderella." It was so good. The evil stepsisters were played by men who completely exaggerated their characters. They had us laughing the whole time. Afterwards, we went to dinner and overall it was a great evening. My hubs also sent me nice.

Friday, Ace was done with boot camp and let me just tell you that was one happy dog that we brought home. We were all happy to have him back, and back minding and obeying everything we say. I LOVE MY DOG!!

Needless to say when we got home both A and Ace were both happy and tired as I snuck a few photos of the sleeping friends.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Missing Mom, dinner and time to think. Today I'm missing my mom. She died 10 years ago, I am still not free...from guilt & shame. I wonder if I'll ever be. I wasn't the kind of person I should have been at her death. I loved her but it made me so sad to see her. I was young and tired of all the responsibilities that became mine. She died when I was 24, became ill when I was 8. I unlike my younger sisters have good memories of her when I was young. She had parties, dressed us in the cutest clothes, spent time playing with us...we loved her. We always will.

In 1980 she was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Her type was chronic progressive, she never had a break from the disease. A year or two after diagnosis we were driving downtown to get new Easter Dresses and we had a car accident. She not wanting to hurt anyone decided to stop driving. As time went on she became weaker and weaker til the time came where we could no longer take care of her needs. She entered a nursing home and it wasn't long before she died.

I miss mom in special times like my wedding and in quiet times like now. I am happy for her that she is no longer a prisoner in her own body. I mourn her still, but it goes unnoticed except to me.

Mom I love ya.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Still a little nervous

I am so glad to see how quick some people responded. You guys are awesome. I am still a bit nervous about starting my new blog. Most of the people I knew from the chinese adoption blogs know what drove me away, but for the new readers I'll just put it like this. There are many, many people out there that will mess with your heart, mind, soul and blog. My blog kinda got hijacked by someone doing this.

I have been contemplating making this new blog for 6 months now. I miss the connection I had with so many wonderful people. International adoption is very difficult and I truly think I can say that if you haven't done one, you really don't understand what it's like.

Some new things in my life since my last post:
  • Ace (my dog) is in puppy boot camp cause we spoiled him and he wasn't trained correctly. He is almost done with his 4 week detail.
  • I am starting to re-decorate my house. Sick of mostly cream walls. Thinking about a tan in the suede technique from Ralph Lauren. If anyone has done this let me know how you liked it. We also have a new front door and french doors to be installed soon. Yippee!
  • I am definitely not as stressed as before.
  • I am one year older.
  • I have a new nephew.
  • I am excited for a little get-a-way I will soon be attending with my sisters and their hubs and kids.
  • So excited to talk with old friends and meet some new ones.

Hope everyone has a great day today. It is actually going to hit 40 degrees today where I live. Yipee some warm weather without snow!!!

Friday, February 8, 2008

Well Hellllloooooo!

I just wanted to post a quick hello to old friends and hopefully some new friends. I hope to get in touch with all of you again.